The clouds of doubt is going to be clear soon....I hope for good

yesterday I had to go to the hospital with Arman..he has broken his hand for the third time!!and the cast needed to be changed and looked after by a specialist...anyways there were two things I noticed...first I realize whenever I go to a hospital I get a headache...I forgot about it..I used to volunteer in a hospital here and I used to have a headache when I would come home and I realize I don't want to work in a hospital...second you always hear that people go to hospitals alot of them find their soulmates there;)Its wiered but I personally know 2 people who got proposals like that!!and because I am the king of chance and I am the luckest girl alive, guess what happened?;)okay I was hoping to see a cute and young doctor...Arman's Dr. was an old man who was very strick!!!I did not see any cute or young people in the hospital...so here is my fat chance;)but thinking back...I guess I need to know something about someone..I think I am still not sure...but I don't know how to ask...and what to say without being judged later...but do you believe that you can not love someone that you used to love?...

last tuesday for the first time I went to the funeral of a person I knew..I have never seen the body before the put him in a grave and shovel ground on him...when the clergy was talking about him...I could not help crying...although I didn't know him much but as always to me he is leaving and he is not coming back....

last tuesday for the first time I went to the funeral of a person I knew..I have never seen the body before the put him in a grave and shovel ground on him...when the clergy was talking about him...I could not help crying...although I didn't know him much but as always to me he is leaving and he is not coming back....

These days I am just busy writing my summer report..and amazingly when you think you don't have engouh to say, when you sit down and outline it, there are tons!!!yesterday in the lab my prof was saying that there is a PhD position in one of their collaborative universities in Norway;) and he was saying that I should go...and giving some reasons why to go;)like..."you are young and you can do and go anywhere and plus their stuff have biomedical application!!!"with the sound of biomedical my eyes got soooooo big!!I never new in a million years that what Arpana was working on could be used as a artificial cardiovascular valve!!!!!It was funny because Dr. Roy was in the lab too and he said: "look at her..her eyes shined when you said biomedical" ..anyways I don't know what my prof thinks..I mean I guess he thinks I should do PhD bypassing masters..or I don't know....